After High school ended. I wanted to a video game developer, a writer, a police officer and eventually settled on applying in the military because I thought it'd be my best shot at figuring out what I wanted to do. I was 19 and still no idea what I wanted to do.
When the Army couldn't take me because of my eyes I fell back on my best friend to get me a job in retail. Half of those years I worked as a Courtesy Clerk and the other half I was a Produce Clerk. It's riveting, I know. Well here's the problem. I had all of these ideas, some of them were bat shit crazy. All of them never had a single plan laid out. For a time I played video games with a group I co-founded and originally dubbed Pad Jockey, but changed to Autosave Gaming because someone had the name before us. That was a struggle and when we were getting somewhere we got hit with a few personal differences and we kind of fell apart. The problem itself was solved but we've pretty much abandoned our attempts at Let's Plays.
Besides that fun, and being an Officer in a small guild called the Chorba Intelligence Academy, I was practically a drone. Just going through my days, working and playing video games and even treating my video gaming as work. Now that I look back on it, I was not in a good situation. I had no one to blame but myself this time. However there was a little thing that I continued to do, which was writing stories. I've never stopped doing that. I never stopped creating characters and the worlds they inhabited. I never stopped thinking of their plots and the journeys they'd go through. Some of those stories I even plan to make into comics.
Fast forward a few years and I got a little too angry and was fired from my job. Without a guide of what to do and where to go, my Mom sent me to our family in Arkansas. All I did was play video games.... until I decided one day that I'd try to draw an Anime eye. When I did, it's like all the gears in my head clicked into place. I had a sudden realization of what I knew I was going to do. How I was going to inspire people and make a career for myself. How to spread my stories and maybe even see these characters in my head be brought to life by my own strokes of a pencil. It is one of the best moments in my life so far.
It's been over a year and I returned back to Washington state with my family and am currently holding a job and enrolled in college for Art. I can still recall being shocked at my replication of the eye, and even today I continue to be shocked by my own drawings. It's amazing that I canndonthis, and I have to thank everyone for their support in my determination to see this through.
Thank you, everyone. From the members of Jormungandr, to my friends of SWTOR, RGA and ASG, to my family and best of friends. You've kept me up float and I'm glad you all did your best to keep me from sinking into the ocean of depression and aelf-loathing. You can bet your ass that I'll make this career happen, no matter what it takes. Life has thrown challenge after challenge at me, tragedy mixed with happiness... I guess it just forgot I was born married to Lady Luck. Not to mention I met a lot of amazing people in the past 22 years.
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