Tragedy Loves Happiness

After High school ended. I wanted to a video game developer, a writer, a police officer and eventually settled on applying in the military because I thought it'd be my best shot at figuring out what I wanted to do. I was 19 and still no idea what I wanted to do. When the Army couldn't take me because of my eyes I fell back on my best friend to get me a job in retail. Half of those years I worked as a Courtesy Clerk and the other half I was a Produce Clerk. It's riveting, I know. Well here's the problem. I had all of these ideas, some of them were bat shit crazy. All of them never had a single plan laid out. For a time I played video games with a group I co-founded and originally dubbed Pad Jockey, but changed to Autosave Gaming because someone had the name before us. That was a struggle and when we were getting somewhere we got hit with a few personal differences and we kind of fell apart. The problem itself was solved but we've pretty much abandoned our attempts a...

Throughout these posts I've gone through a general story of my life and my inspirations and the things I did. We're going to step back for a second and look at the people I call my parents. As of this moment, I have a Mom, a Dad, 2 Amazing Stepmoms, a Bitch who believes she's entitled to having the title of Stepmom and my Biological Father. You see what I did there? I have a Dad and a Biological Father. I'm sure you've heard this story before. The Father was a douche so the guy who married the Mom one or two relationships later is now Dad, because he does a better job. You're not wrong, the problem is that my Father isn't just a douche that cheated on my Mom. He's a douche that has targeted every woman in my family as an attempt to punish or emotionally affect my Mother. Even if it's not to target her, the things he's done still has ripples and has affected her regardless. As I type this, I am beginning to shake in anger. The reason being is th...

Anime and Video games. They're more and more commonly associated these days. Dragonball Fighter Z, Code Vein, Naruto Shippuden Ultimate Ninja Storm Series, you name a popular Anime series it's very possible it has a video game made for it or in the works. Hell there are video games made with an Anime style or story that aren't even based directly off of a popular series. There's no argument both of these forms of media have been heavy influences on my life, not to discount the many other things I do, such as watching YouTubers like Markiplier and the Game Grumps, watching Rooster Teeth content, listening to music from Eminem and recently Nathan Sharp. They typically lift my spirit, and the stories they tell or emulate can get your blood pumping or your mind thinking. I used to use video games as an escape from my problems. I would rarely leave the house. Now, a lot of people would go on to say that that's a bad thing. In my case, it was a great thing, but not beca...

Freshman year was an interesting experience and it certainly transformed my view of the world for the longest time. I recently stepped out of the whole I dug myself. I met a few new friends that year, some who I'm still friends with to this day (at least on Facebook) I had an official girlfriend who I had my first kiss with and an emotional break up. At the very least it caught me off guard and really upset me. I also discovered an amazing thing that I find a lot of my inspiration from. Manga, and soon after I discovered Anime. So I was a real nerd, I was stereotypical glasses kid, picking boogers in class, being naturally smart... but I fell asleep in classes. A lot. Specifically Science. I made a transition from that to a guy who most people thought "He's going to shoot up the school." I never had those thoughts, but I did have suicidal thoughts, a whole bunch. I thought I was going crazy and I was so scared of growing up and becoming old (Still am really) It'd...

Were now at the point of my life that I can barely remember. The only way I can explain it is that I hated that part of my life so badly that I ripped those memories out of my head. And in those years, my Inner Demon, or as Christopher Titus says, my Inner Retard was born. This is the voice that constantly beats you down, that tells you you're never good enough, that laughs in your face at the worst mistakes. Dad and Stepmom #2 (There's another I didn't mention yet, hold your horses) got us to the house midday, sometime in Summer/Fall. I brought my Harry Potter books with me. Low and behold I was told Christians don't believe in Harry Potter. Well, this was a new thing. I never paid any attention to religion in my life before that so I was just was confused as all hell. I also couldn't watch or do anything involving Pokemon or Yu-Gi-Oh or Digimon. Nothing like that. Because it was against some guy named Jesus who was supposedly some big shot up in the sky who gave ...

So, let's go through the next 10 or so years, shall we? We're ripping off the bandaid really early for this general summary of my life. Mom found a guy she wanted to stay with in Texas sometime that year. Before that however the state of Arkansas is like, half-south? So no one in my school could pronounce my name right. They kept saying it like Dominique, but it's pronounced Dominick. So, in a lunch line some kids knew I didn't like my name being said wrong, some guy thought it'd be funny to pick on the kid with the different name. So I called him fat and was done with it. Next thing I know I'm in the principals office for calling a kid fat. If I was older I would've been "Do you see how large he is? He was probably eating twinkies when taken out of the womb." To my 7 year old self that dude was a human bowling ball. Anyway, Mom dragged me and Sis to the guy in Texas and filed for divorce from my Father. Or maybe she did it before hand? The poin...

My full name is Dominik Loretto Sanmarco. I am currently going to college for a DTA (Direct Transfer for Arts) Degree (I think that's what it's called). I'm an aspiring Manga/Comic artist and I love crafting fantasy and sci-fi stories in my free time. I was born 3 months early at 1 pound 11 ounces with a twin named Alexander in Buffalo, New York. Within the first few weeks of our premature birth Alex caught an unknown virus in the hospital which killed him. That's right, I was born with a twin I never got to meet. The doctors saw me, barely making it through the lack of nutrition I had in the womb, having to give me oxygen and thought in best case scenario, I would survive but have no motor functions. Thankfully, with Lady Luck and my Mom at my bedside as often as they could be there I eventually made it home, with some additional medical equipment because I wasn't exactly "ready" yet. About three years later my Mom gave birth to my Sister. A bundle of j...

I'm just going to be straight out blunt about this. This blog is a recollection of my life, told by me. A self continuing auto-biography. This is the way I viewed the world around me, what I was exposed to, and how I feel about it all. This is not for the feign of heart. Some of the things I've been through and done are things that I am either not proud of, or just need to let out. Just to clear the air let me state a few things. I am not a racist. When it comes to politics I tend to swing liberal but I honestly don't care as long as they do their job and don't make the lives of others too difficult. I cuss, a lot. I'll try to be lenient in these posts, but if it comes out, it comes out. Also, when it comes to sex, and transgender/gay issues I am on the side of "You be you." Thanks, now let's cut the crap and I'll begin.