Leap of Faith

I dont know how long I've been staring at this mirror. Just looking over myself time and time again, nitpicking everything I do or involve myself in. Youd think with how much of a perfectionist I am I'd have perfected myself first.

I've see a person that let their past shape them, I've seen myself refuse to acknowledge my hardships and let them make me better. I've nearly seen myself commit to a tragic end that wouldve broken more hearts than just my own. I've broken down and cried about my shortcomings nore than I can count. I've molded myself several times after the people I watch and listen to because I felt in order to be successful I had to be them, not myself.

I'm gonna be honest... I've always held myself back. Not because of procradtination, not because I'm scared of commitment. I'm scared of the possibility of being wrong. What if I choose the wrong road and I'm not happy with it? I can't just hit the reset button.

These questions have been asked multiple times in my head. What if I'm wrong? Who am I? Is this what I really want? Can I make this career actually succeed?

I've had these questions for years and I'm just sick of sitting in my filth. I've never done anything about it because of a "What if?" It's not anyone else's responsibility to take that first step but my own. But I say fuck that. It's a leap of faith and I'm finally taking it. I dont need a running start because I've been ready this entire time I just never had the balls.

So I'm gonna break the mirror. I'm done holding myself back and I'm gonna start working toward my success... not wallow in the possibility of failure.